Who Are The Volunteers?

In this post I plan to answer the questions I posed at the end of my previous post entitled “The Three Waves of Volunteers”:

“The part I didn’t mention, and now I’m thinking I should, is why there were three waves of volunteers? And also who are these volunteers?”

In the time I’ve been away from the blog, I realized I did answer one of those questions!  Right at the beginning of the previous post, too!

“I AM part of the Second Wave of Light-workers to volunteer to come to Earth and assist Humanity in lifting its’ vibration towards ascension.”

Duh! 😀 Hahaha… I forget lots of things… and then I remember them! Although, usually when it’s inconvenient, thus forgetting once again.

So, Volunteers are here to help Earth and Humanity raise their vibrations and ascend to higher dimensional levels.  It seems crazy, I know, it’s totally outside the realm of what is “normal.” But “normal” is simply something you’re used to.  People, humans, can adapt readily to any situation, given they have a desire to keep going.  We are adapting everyday to changes around us. There are the conscious changes we make to our lives, there are the changes to our society that we all have to adapt to,  and there are subtle energetic changes that few are even aware of, but still adjust and adapt to them.

Every moment gives us another opportunity to adapt and evolve.  Evolution doesn’t have to be a slow process.  In fact, in this era, time and progress are greatly accelerated, moving at exponential speed.  Visualize our timeline through history…. the prehistoric era was so long ago in our frame of reference it’s going to be the furthest left on the timeline (think dinosaurs & Cro-magnon). Then after that, and some generous space-time, we’ll have early history, and from here things will become a little more closely spaced on the timeline (Sumeria, Egypt, and early human civilization).  The closer you get to our present place in time-space, it will seem like something is happening every year, every month, every day, and eventually every minute.  Events occur rapidly now, and it’s nearly impossible to keep up with everything, and still have a life. (Below is a very rough sketch of what I’m talking about.)

Does anyone remember anything from Algebra?  I can remember some of it, and right now I’m thinking about the exponential curve on a graph.  It’s reaching toward this limit, but it never reaches it, it just goes on forever almost touching the limit.  That’s what we humans are right now.  We are traveling on a curve of exponential growth, plotted and planned by the Grand Master Mathematician (God Source, or Source Energy).

God Source asked us to Volunteer and come here.  God Source has a plan for Earth, and needs our help to make it happen.  We couldn’t just come in our ships or merkahbahs and enact the changes.  The changes had to come from the Humans on Earth’s surface, who are entrenched in the Karmic cycles.  Direct interference was not allowed. Still isn’t…. Yet….

The Loop Hole:  We can change things from the inside, instead of the outside.  We incarnate on Earth in human bodies, with no memory of our mission or where we came from.  Humans don’t remember their origins, so neither could we.

General Mission:  Remember, and then get to work.  OR in other words… Follow your heart and your feelings to the truths they lead you to “remember.”  Incorporate those truths into your life.  Live consciously, without ego, and with love. OR in other words… read this: Message from Alcyone

I have found in my research that enlightenment comes from a steady practice of mediation and contemplation. It actually feels like no work at all once you start.  I have a terrible time trying to stay present, often relaxing so much and breathing so deeply I fall asleep.  You can add in any number of things, as long as it feels right to you.

Second Part: Who Are the Volunteers?

Well, each individual person/soul on the planet has to figure out for themselves if they are part of the recent volunteer waves.  Ultimately, we all volunteered to be here, just at different points on the space-time continuum.

Before coming to the 3rd dimensional Earth, you could’ve been any number of different things that inhabit the physical and non-physical universe.  Let’s see…. basically there’s just Extraterrestrials, and that grouping includes an infinite number of variations, both physical and non-physical.  Any being not from Earth is an extraterrestrial, so don’t get your panties in a bunch if you don’t like that idea.  Non-physical ETs are more commonly termed “angels,” but not all non-physical beings are angels.  Some might be considered “demons.”

When I say non-physical, I want you to understand that these beings inhabit the higher dimensions, 5th and above (except for the “demons” they are not allowed very far up the dimensional ladder, as they have not done the work to atone for their misdeeds).  There are beings who are naturally non-physical but choose to manifest a form or body for specific purposes. Like in their work with humans, because we can deal with it better.  They also can choose to manifest a human body, or be born into a human body.  Although, being born into a human body comes with certain stipulations & requirements. A) You have to forget pretty much everything, which is everything because what we know, pales in comparison to what we don’t know.  B) You have to work back up to where you were and beyond, because each life is an opportunity to learn something.

Many Volunteers had several previous lives on other planets, but none here on Earth. This life would be their first one, and usually you can tell if you or someone you know has an incredibly difficult time adjusting to life here.   Then there are also Volunteers who’ve never had a physical incarnation, they came directly from God Source/Source Energy as pure souls, and they have the most difficult time here.
My point is…. Wait, do I have a point? Um, no….  In summary, we are all here for a reason.  Take the time to go into your Inner Sanctuary during meditation, every day, and have no expectation, just connect – don’t just try, because you’ll forever “just try” – just connect to the Oneness of everything.

This is MY current mission.  I have been neglectful for many years.  But, now we’re at that point where it’s crunch time!  I was/am an avid procrastinator, and whereas I used to procrastinate on projects & papers, now I’m procrastinating on my own enlightenment & ascension.  I have until the end of year, at least that’s the deadline I’ve given myself.  But we all have all the time in the universe.  Do not fret, just get started! (I’m mostly telling that to myself.)

Please don’t take my word for anything. Do the research, and feel it out for yourself.  This is what I have figured out so far, I’m just trying to put it into words, so other people can understand and begin their journey of discovery.

With Love & Light,

RLilly

Socialized

I haven’t been a very social person lately.

A part of me wants to want to hang out with groups of people, some of which I hopefully know, and laugh and… just talk.

Too often I over think the talking part and don’t say much at all.  I have a weak voice, meaning: I don’t speak up frequently, and end up just mumbling to myself.

I’m not very good in groups.

Now one-on-one, I can do that.  But, lately I haven’t been doing that either.  It’s like they know, too.  No one is calling me.  I’m not really picking up the phone or going through email.

Basically, I don’t want to go anywhere, and see anybody.  I don’t feel like socializing.  It’s draining. (I need to read Rose Rosetree’s book on empaths and how to protect one’s self.  That’s probably the root issue of social issues (I hope).)

It’s so much easier, living my life in my own bubble.  Suppose I’m afraid that another person might pop it.  One little thing is all it would take to make me anxious and upset my calm.  (Which probably wouldn’t happen so easily if I used this alone time to meditate.)

I’m always catching myself wasting time.  Dawdling in the morning when I should be rushing to get to work on time.  Futzing around with things while getting dinner ready.  It is definitely a little ADD, but goddamn frustrating.

I can’t seem to get a firm mental grip on the passage of time anymore, if I ever could in the first place.  Sometimes it really does feel like we’re cramming 24 hours into 16.

I look around at other people; relatives, family friends, high school friends, my co-worker, my neighbors, the strangers in their cars commuting with me – and they make me feel like I haven’t accomplished anything (which, really, I haven’t).  They make me feel ugly and less than a whole person because I lack the drive to make my dreams a reality.  (And that’s something I actually believe we can do!)

When did life get so complicated?  I feel like this is some sort of big cosmic practical joke.  Was I just not told some things?  Much like anyone I would judge as being ignorant?  Is everything backwards? And forwards? All at the same time?

Crazily enough, the answer is yes.  All is possible. We but only have to choose which path to take.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,/ And sorry I could not travel them both/ And be one traveler, long I stood/ And looked down one as far as I could/ To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,/ And having perhaps the better claim,/ Because it was grassy and wanted wear,/ Though as for that the passing there/ Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay/ In leaves no step had trodden black./ Oh, I kept the first for another day!/ Yet knowing how way lead on to way,/ I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh/ Somewhere ages and ages hence:/ Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-/ I took the one less traveled by,/ And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost

[That was one of the first poems I really loved (and had to memorize, which I did while roller skating around  in circles in my parents’ garage).]

Now, this poem brings up some very good points that apply directly to what’s been troubling me.

I am sorry I can’t travel both paths, all paths for that matter.  (Perhaps a part of me inherently knows multidimensional me can do it. Theory/thought.)

Long I am standing, here and now, looking down each path, carefully inspecting, as if it were a rickety plank and rope bridge over an incredibly high crevasse.  But, no.  It’s quite simple.  At least, much more simple than I’ve made it out to be in my head.  I’m looking for the log in the middle of the road before I even start down that path, afraid that I will get stuck or have to diverge from the path.

Although, it’s not the literal diverging from the path that gets me, but the unwanted/unexpected change or kink that get me.

Sometimes, I’m really good about it.  I just go with the flow.  But other times, it’s just like, “Woah! What’s going on here! Nobody told me that this was going to happen!”

But, things do happen all of a sudden.  It’s the nature of things.  The nature of the Universe.

I need to practice opening my mind, making it more flexible, and bend to my will, not me bending to it’s will.

Just thinking about how complicated the truth about our universe is and all it’s small implications, the billions upon trillions of parts working together on multiple frequencies and dimensions.

Tomorrow I will meditate. I must. 1:11 Am

Rlilly

Good-bye Lazy-butt!

The pieces are beginning to fall into place. Each physical piece has a mental counterpart that must adapt and change too.

Currently, it is health. I can only focus on one thing at a time, but this is a big thing. It’s the cornerstone – nay, the foundation of my physical existence.

I have had a lifetime of struggle with my health. As a kid and well into my 20’s, I’d always thought of it in terms of how much I weighed and the amount of food I ate. Exercise was an aside, and not really a problem. But as I got older, I would do less and less physical activity, especially that which I actually wanted to do. And it didn’t help that I was (and am) a lazy-butt.

Still I remember running around my yard with my sister and neighbors playing tag, kick the can and riding our bikes everywhere. Rarely do I remember getting too winded or tired really fast (definitely not as fast as I do now). But, looking back I see that it was because I was out there all the time. I didn’t care about what I looked like in my clothes, only that they were comfortable enough for me to move around in.

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Now, I wasn’t the most athletic in the bunch, and in fact, I was most often teased for that fact. Unfortunately, I was also teased for my choice in dress (hot pink stretch pants with stirrup straps and t-shirts, nothing fancy, no jeans, ever.) [photo above: I’m in red, my mom made that… I didn’t have much choice in the matter.]

The sensitive person that am was slowly broken down by the teasing, and I believed those bullies. They were, after all, my peers.  (Stupid peers and their judging!)

But I rebounded. (yay!)

A couple times… (?)… a couple different ways. (… ?)

OK, this could get really complicated, but I’m gonna keep short and sweet.

At 13, moved away from bullies & started feeling better about myself. Started wearing jeans.

At 14, started first “diet” (bleh) & did it! Lost 30 pounds.

At 16, started driving & working, and now could eat fast food whenever I wanted. (uh oh…)

At 20, after struggling with trying “eating right” (more like hitting my head against a brick wall repeatedly), finishing high school, & starting college I reached an all time high weight. (not pretty, see Facebook)

I’m then diagnosed with ADD and started taking various (prescription) amphetamines, which killed my appetite & revved my metabolism in high gear. Lost 60 pounds, with no real exercise.

At 21, met Omar, and rarely left his side. We love to eat, a lot. We don’t exercise. Well, he doesn’t exercise… very often.

Point: I am trying to exercise more (doesn’t have to be extreme, but anything feels extreme to me right now).

Point Point: I’m also eating better. Not necessarily less, although, that wouldn’t be a bad idea every now and again. But, I am eating way more fruits and vegetables than I was two months ago.

Moving to this new place, with just Omar and me has been great. I finally feel free to do what I want, when I want without having to worry about other people and stepping on their toes. I know I didn’t have to feel that way before, but that’s just the kind of person I am.

Plus, Trader Joe’s is like right around the corner (don’t have to go through any traffic lights)! Perfect for trying to have a more balanced, healthy diet. And it’s cheaper 9 times out of 10!

Anyways, right now all I am doing is trying to eat better, cook more, take more walks, and do squats in my spare moments (watching TV, smoking a cigarette -another habit I need to fix- standing in line, etc.). Also, lifting 3 pound hand weights while watching TV, too.

My lazy-butt always wanted to stop when it got too tough, and didn’t understand that to get better, even to maintain, one must never stop.   One must keep practicing. (I never liked practice; gave up the piano, basketball, clarinet, guitar, and soccer.  The only thing I did like to practice, was with the choir.)

So, I keep looking at my new Pinterest.com page; “Healthy Inspiration.” It does the trick to keep me motivated.  I read the words and see the hot bodies… and wish, just as much as I had before, that I had just a hint of a body like theirs’.  But, now I’m putting it together…. small changes consistently applied over time, create big lasting changes.

“Just Do It”

Don’t. Give. Up.

-rlilly